Wednesday, June 13, 2007

a speech worth saying

remembered my previous post regarding the board game?

yes! the client' actually voted our team as the best out of the six. man,that was so worth it, the waiting and hunger and pain.

thank God. I told you we were going to be picked as first!
here goes my egooooo hahahaha. i can't help my over-whelming joy!

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

it runs through my veins.

I finally had some good ol' chat with Alexis, and the passion of working finally set in. The amount of things to acquire is definitely something that could not be act upon in a days time, but those words, those meaningful and real words really got me running again.

In the previous post, I was barely breathing. I couldn't move. My mind doesn't agree that it should think. My stomach equally disagrees in not doing it's job for the next few hours. And so, I begin to fall. Slowly, the pressure attacks from the smallest and most unexpected area at all, sets in and conquers my mind. Telling me, hey now, you can't go on.

But after a few speeches this evening, man I couldn't wait to start on my inisiatives! A work is to be done, and to be submitted to Kancil Awards. And it's such a blessing that I was called to cooperate in working out the art direction and visuals. Well, being told that it is a sure Gold, Silver or Bronx is extremely passion-driven. Now that's the thing that got me running again.

On the other hand, my team's strategic planning for Van Houten wasn't as bad as we thought. It was actually far beyond safe, from PeterGan's point of view. A couple of them even raised their hands when I asked, who would buy our ideas. 4/5 girls. That's great. Then again, in good hopes, this shall be even better. In other words, blow people's mind away. Yay to today :)

Monday, June 11, 2007

the biggest wonder of the world

I remembered when Pam text-ed me, saying how she cried, reflecting on how once she really felt close to God. How deep down inside, she knew there was a connection, that she was living by His will. And how she got touched once again by the woship. It hit me real hard too. It really got me thinking, am I really living by His will? I go to church and worship and all, but do I really have that relationship with God? Am I really living the way He wants me to live? Whatever it is, it got me thinking real good. There were regrets, definitely. But then again, thank God that Pam reminded me the slightest thing that I didn't know change in my life.

I started thinking, how God already lead me into his purposes for me and his ways for me to act upon. It's been my third year knowing God. Everytime when I'm almost achieving my success spiritually, I brought myself back to the world. Something, that I've been struggling with. I get so worn out by the world's system, honestly. My hope was always to be able to have holidays, cuz that's the one particular moment where I'm not bothered by anything else and I can really focus. Up to the point where I can share, fast, and study the bible at least. Well, that mentailty of having to focus only during free time is definitely wrong. But yeah, I really don't know how to stay focused when I get thrown so far away God's presence.

Again, there is no such thing as being far away from God's presence. It's totally normal to feel that way when we don't try to talk to God, I know that, but altogether, it's just hard. Thing is, I'm not only trying to say it's hard. I'm claiming that however hard it is to stay focus, I WANT TO. And I will, one day. Thankyou sayang, for reminding me in your most indirect ways...

Work has been really tough. No, I don't say the word tough for the sake of it. I felt it. The pain is not easy to take. I have predict that skipping meals and sleepless nights would be an everyday routine, but I've been pushed to the limit where I start questioning myself, "Hey, is this worth it? Am I the only people person that skips his meal and doesn't sleep?! Everyone seems normal! They still live their routine which is seemingly 'hard', but why do I have to pay 5 times of it?" Well, then again, as the advertisers speak, I'll know when to shut up and realize when I receive my first award. But Godly speaking, wth?!
I guess I'm just to damn confused to be writing now. For you who have been reading up to this line, the verdict?

once again, nothing much really.

Friday, June 8, 2007

Random times

Have alot to work on in office today.

I would just want to say that, I'm not going back to the place I had my lunch today.
It was this small place, with forceful decorations to make it look classy. It had tables from metallic ones you see in mamaks to wooden ones you can spot in TGI Friday. God, and there's this only one set of table which is so weird, almost like for giants with extremely short legs. It's something undescribable. This is one of those times where I can actually say, a picture says a thousand words. But yeah, unfortunately I dont have it now. Maybe some other time. And the service is just far too lousy. We asked for meal's price and the one and only waitress asked someone else (I suppose) and never return to inform us what we asked.
Also, the cashier, who's a lady, seemed to be serving all the ordered foods and drinks more than the waitress. That's for one. To top if off with another bad thing is our orders weren't exactly what we ordered for. God, I'm not going back to that place again. And for the love of God, the ice lemon tea costs me RM 5.00. I don't mind paying 5 bucks for an ice lemon tea. But not in that environment, with that kind of service and food. My pasta's portion was so small, a baby would cry for more. And that's like 10 bucks.

Hey, something I noticed. I've cut down on expressing my thoughts, and went on to my complains like any other random bloggers. Okay okay, I'll start writing nice stuff for you to read. Prove that my blog's worth your time ;)

Friday, June 1, 2007

Money talks. Chocolate sings

Man, that must've been the gayest thing to name this post. I've been working 2 particular brand of chocolates lately. Had to conduct researches that also includes thousands and thousand of neverending pictures of course. How can you NOT find any chocolate image on google? And being the man that I am of not really keen of chocolates, it did tempt me a little bit by looking at those mouth watering babies. Hahaha!

Also, I found a few interesting facts. Apparently, the average chocolate bar in the U.S. contains at least 8 pieces of an insect in it. Harvesting the cacao beans occus in the tropical countries of South America with low sanitation levels. Cacao tree beans are cut and piled in the farmer's field where they ferment for 6 days. During that bloody process, children and adults walk over the piles, that also includes INSECTS, RODENTS, SMALL ANIMALS and OTHER LIVING THINGS THAT MAKE THEIR NESTS IN THE PILES. Dammit. Hey, don't get me wrong, I know to most of you, chocolate are still mouth-watering and all that. So continue loving it.