Brain Vomit.

Frankly, I find people very, very interesting. Those who aren't so bright (not speaking from an educational point of view by the way), who doesn't have a firm opinion about something, or even anything at all! This can be quite generic, but most of the time, turns out to be the nicer one. One that goes, "Hey! He drinks, and drives, never gotten in an accident before. Bloody cool he's like the shit!", or even "You know, I know this girl, who has like the hottest friends!" Okay maybe this isn't quite getting to you as my examples could be too generic again. These are the ones, that most seemingly to be the most easily brought and influence to thinking or even committing in things they probably regret in 5 years. You tell them about serious stuff, and they just stare blankly into your face, uttering the words you never thought came out of their mouths. Seriously people, get real and don't watch too much television.

Then there are the 'brighter' ones who often, has the 'best' answers and own opinion on yada yada. The one that everyone looks up to because of their 'guru' or 'mastery' title. High probability could be the main players of their industry and achieving a fair amount of success. Usually, expresses themselves the most. Couldn't shut the f*ck up for a second to stop listening to what others have say. (That could be the reason to their success! Try that some time, children.) Yesyes, having your opinion and believing it is a good thing. A very good thing, to be honest. But doesn't anyone has that little voice in you that says, you COULD be wrong about it? For instance, thinking that the little dude at the side of the class is like the most vulnerable guy ever existed. Or thinking, "oh well I'm all good now, no need for room of improvement in managing my family." I mean, come on fellas. That much of an ego can actually breathe in your small, weak and horrible body of yours? Tone it down a second won't you?

And finally, the ones I favor the most, usually the ones that you see me hanging around with. You know why? They seem to have a fair balance of absorbing what they're being told. Having to practise that sense of filtering what's wrong and right for them. Knowing that it 'could be' or 'could also not be' attitude. A fair amount of joke, laughter and nuisance, so is a fair amount of seriousness in their thoughts and decision making. Fair amount of care and love and appreciation. No it's not gay to care for one another, but let's not exaggerate people if you don't mean it that much. Thank God, for these minds. If the world's only filled with the two categories of people's minds I've mentioned above, there will be no longer a person that is worth sharing a conversation anymore.

I have learned that almost all of us puts on a facade/mask whenever they revolve around different people. I've learned to not hold grudges or to be fake with one another. Not to hold back a smile whenever I wanted to. Often times, people's mask thicken as they go through a certain phase in their lives which are unfortunately tough and saddens them. Therefore, resulting in such behavior. I then moved on, to grabbing I thought was best for me, saying what I thought was the smartest words. Well, see I thought I knew it all after going through a phase where people taught you 'how' to be a person. As it turns out, I beat myself to death by 'flaunting' my knowledge and experiences, and lost my inner soul. Yup, and thank God for people who were there to remind me who I am. In the end, we do, we do have to let go of the things and feelings that holds us down from achieving anything good for our sake, but ALSO remembering to keep certain values to ourselves and not throwing it away. Sometimes, we just forget the good sides of us, changing and becoming that nasty and cold person that everyone looks up to yet hates. Nobody has to ever take it to that extend. Everything is just a fair amount of balance.

Who and what are you?

ps: I have recently found out that SP has lost his six year old daughter from cancer last monday. Had been suffering from it for at least six months already. My deepest, deepest condolences to him and his family. It must've been so hard he couldn't come in the office.