Sense of Belonging.

I really wanna do something I really like in the future. Question is, is it really a job I can earn money doing or merely a hobby? I'm devastated by the reality.
On the bright side of it, although this is the worst semester ever in my college, I still can see myself maturing in thoughts of life, existence and all that. I guess I'm beginning to digest it properly without confusing myself as I always used to. I did learned a whole lot last semester, but it was mostly on my career sneak-peak. But what ever beats self-actualization right?

As I listen to I-Empire, I'm feeling a thousand ways and answers just rush through my head. Having that sense of peace in songs like that, I don't know how do they do it. It's really hard to explain. Listening to it, brings out the right feeling that I have to feel at that moment itself, and I just know that it's right. You can never listen to it without reflecting on yourself, your past, loved ones and God himself.

Every once in a while, I think I'll need to listen to them just to stop the world's time and just think and reflect on who I really am. Well, not actually that, I sort of already understood a part of existence, just whether there's more to it, for me personally. Build me up everyday, God. I feel so tired of chasing after things that the world craves. I'm so tired of putting you aside and looking at things that I thought could satisfy me when I knew it couldn't.

P.s. : Happy Birthday Sophia! I saw your recent picture and you look like Kimora Lee Simmons! YOU GREW FAT. Hahahahahahahaha!