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Ian's 21st

2008-08-30T20:41:00.006+08:00

Kings Park, Perth.

Picture this.

2008-08-17T22:39:00.003+08:00

And you thought I wouldn't touch this blog no longer aimee? Well, I'm keeping it alive. Thus, technically I'm still blogging. Call it whatever you want. I call it, p-i-c-t-u-r-e.

Adrian's 24th.

2008-08-03T23:47:00.003+08:00

Shutting Down.

2008-07-20T00:45:00.002+08:00

Really wanna put an end to this blog for now, but it's always something I can keep to post nonsense on. So for more 'thought-provoking' topics, go to my 'secretbeliever' blog.
This shit is more like a photo album+video viewing blog.
Don't expect anything too serious here, from now on.

Happy Birthday!

2008-07-16T06:19:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday! :)

Leigh Nash!!

2008-07-12T23:42:00.000+08:00

Caversham

2008-07-10T15:54:00.016+08:00

This wombat's damn chubby.
The woman had to pester it like a baby.

Lamb! Reminds me of you know who.

I swear Ian was shootin it all over the floor! *laughs*

One of the most unforgetable experience.
I mean, how many times can I milk a cow in my lifetime?

I'm from England.

2008-07-07T23:42:00.003+08:00

Halfway throughout this day out with Ian, Daphne and Stanley, I came across this moment that made me speechless. Literally, speechless. We were out at the wildlife park, which was awesome by the way. Experience and saw all kinds of animals there. The best one, definitely goes to milking a cow and feeding/stroking kangaroos.
We were up queuing to touch/snap a photograph of this wombat, which is also, extremely chubby and cute. Two steps ahead, there's this lady holding a big lizard on her arm, letting everyone stroke em one by one. I hope I can fill you in with photographs of expressions but sadly I don't have any. It's hilarious!
It was my turn to touch the lizard. So she goes, "Here you can touch it from here to here" (indicating the back of the lizard) So, I touched it. And of course, reptiles are cold blooded.

Me : Wow, awesome. Feels cold though.
Woman : Yeah, it's a repttillleeee (Speaking really slow and trying to announciate the words)
You know? Reptiles? They have colddd blood? (Stroking her arm, indicating blood)
Me : Yeah. What's it called?
Woman : This one? It's called a Nooorrthherrnnn, (points upwards) Bluuuee tonguueee
(sticks out her tongue and points at it), SKINK. (smiles)
Me : :)

Those words were at the edge on my mouth.
I speak English. AT HOME.
But it's all cool.
Don't get me wrong, I wasn't ticked off at all.
There's more to life than always bitching.
Just one of those "Do youuu speakk'a any enngliishhh?" moments that I never encountered.
It was as if Chris Tucker was saying it to my face. Worth a post.

The wonders of being a roadie.

2008-07-04T03:24:00.000+08:00

CHORAL PLEASURE, anyone?

2008-07-04T01:57:00.001+08:00

Semi-Charmed-Life

Teenage Dirtbag

Dancing in the moonlight

You guys suck now.

2008-07-03T16:02:00.002+08:00

Look at Korn now. They were once my favourite band, but who would'a thought, Head's left for Jesus and these guys are just useless now. From what I can see, they're doing a 'great' job replacing Head with some other guitarist, that is so not apart of them. David Silveria's gone as well. I'm telling you, just quit already. And that blonde dude that's doing nothing but headbanging in the middle of the stage? Sorry, but what?! Adding on to that, since when they fancy face-paints?

I'm sure they're (face painted musicians) quite scary to some of you guys. I look at them differently now as well. Doesn't creep me out last time, and now it's just really annoying. I think that blonde dude and the drummer has the ugliest face paint ever. The drummer, whoever that is (don't think Joey plays for them as well anymore) can't take up David's place in a thousand years. Suddenly, Slipknot looking like creeps just come smashing in the band like its theirs. It's not like if Head's around, I'll still listen to them but this doesn't make it any better. I think, I think, I think. Everyone has an opinion. Just give me a little grouchy moments to let it out. Head's headed to Christ, David's gone, you guys, please stop. At least save it for that good name of Korn that they once used to have.

Journey Journo

2008-07-02T23:45:00.006+08:00

Photographer : KongSingWei

Hilarious!!

2008-07-02T13:49:00.006+08:00

I was googling information on the Zapatista National Army of Liberation when I caught this comment. One in a million man, one in a million! And this was, of course about RATM.

Ugh. Worst band ever. No sense of humour, and all their songs sound alike - yelling and bitching and whining. Please, Zack, write a song about, I don't know, a puppy or something.
- Ted, Los Angeles, NY

Canyon Acres DH Run.

2008-07-01T04:39:00.000+08:00

Who's an adrenaline junkie?

Found passion.

2008-07-01T02:01:00.008+08:00

A couple of new hobbies I found, here in Perth. I wonder how would I cope with these interests back in KL. Especially roadbiking & trail riding. I wonder if bike stores are so beat down in KL that there aren't any high-end bike stores. I wonder if there are nice BMX stores that I can go from time to time, replacing parts and what not. I could even just drop by and drool, then leave. Like window shopping, biker style. I wonder if I can hike mountains back in KL (okay that seems fairly possible). What about kayaking?! Where am I gonna find kayak renting? How ever would that be possible in KL? Do it in a swimming pool? Definitely gonna really appreciate the nice views as long as I'm still around.

Cross Country/ Trail Riding

Roadbike

Street Ridin

Flatlanding

Kayaking

York Uno was in Citylink Esplanade!

2008-06-30T18:24:00.001+08:00

Picture Diarrhoea.

2008-06-29T00:52:00.008+08:00

Federal Paris

2008-06-28T17:35:00.000+08:00

Mandurah

2008-06-27T14:37:00.020+08:00

Besides Putt-putt, we went kayaking. Dolphin swam right under us. It was so close we could almost touch it. Awesome feeling, being so close to a wild dolphin! Priceless.

A warm message.

2008-06-23T04:39:00.002+08:00

I've created a new blogspace, dedicated for a different purpose. I've been rather uncomfortable writing certain things here in the open, and I suppose I'll be much more open in the other one. Lesser gap in between myself and you the readers. Cheers.

www.asecretbeliever.blogspot.com

Another rendezvous

2008-06-22T02:02:00.004+08:00

Had to catch up a little bit with the housemates after a whole semester. Now that we're on winter break, we thought it'd be nice to have a steamboat dinner outdoors at our flat. And so we did, and it was the best! Dhruv's missing though. Also, a bowling session with em nearby. Ivan's got a clean sheet of five strikes. He's a monster! It's pretty much just the outing sessions that we haven't had time for during the semester that we're mending back for, now.

Shawn's coming on the 21st of next month, and I got a couple of things in my mind at the moment. Everyone's looking for a job. I did myself, a couple of resumes handed out. Pretty fussy person I'd say, not wanting too much of a low pay. Been contemplating of backpacking in the rest of the places in Western Australia. Up north to the desert. That'll be awesome!

Love overcomes everything.

2008-06-16T07:10:00.003+08:00

I might seem a little reserved sometimes, even though towards family and my closest friends, and even to my girlfriend. I always fail to show little gestures to express love, which is what I'm trying to catch up with. But know that I love you.

I've held a lot thoughts to myself. I'll share it now.

Grassroots.

2008-06-16T06:09:00.002+08:00

Often times I glaze at pictures and videos of a certain somewhere in the world and just like a any kid, dreaming of landing my feet there, breathing the air. Just the thought of being a stranger in a land excites me. That could be one of the biggest reasons I complain less than others do when I'm here in Australia. I just watch one of these Brazilian shows shot at Rio. What a colorful culture I must say.

The question is, is that want to be a stranger just a feeling when I'm all caught in the moment? From then on, the whole backpacking desire comes in. That long strap and strings tied around you while you venture and let your eyes be opened. Not only that, your heart comes together as well. Not only the experience is worthwhile, but the amount of openness you will achieve when you're at the peak of your game. *exhales*

A whole different story. It's quite discouraging, knowing that my average income just doing kitchen work could total up to an estimation of 3,000 dollars. Whereas, an average executive in Malaysia earns about 3-5,000 Ringgit. After the conversion of course, that sums up to 10,000. Now I'm thinking. Why would I work more, and harder when I can earn so much more else where? Then again, I shall worry not, for God provides all the time. Well, I'm actually not worried, but rather just simply questioning.

There are too many things that I want to accomplish in my life. Too many things that I desire to experience. The second half of that sentence, is those experiences and accomplishment aren't just any tomdickharry's. It has to be God-pleasing. Or at least my understanding of God-pleasing.

Moving on to another thought. I've been exposed a lot here, in the knowledge on things that are quite an issue, yet silenced. Things like, Natural Family Planning. Just the one topic, is such a big discussion. And hearing theories and thoughts from others definitely changed my mind. Plus, I think my typical quick-to-judge inner attitude's slowly in control. With a lot of practice and wisdom taught, or else it wouldn't be easy. We're all looking to move on. I drew a thousand routes by now, just waiting for a voice to command. Coincidentally, a lot of these thoughts and teachings I want to share with a particular group can't be done. Simply because they happen to not be around me. It would probably help if I start jotting down some thoughts from now on.

So many things seem unimportant in my eyes now. I'm going back to the basics. Family, friendship and just spreading the love. So many distractions, so many challenges. The world's turning upside down. God be with us.

The art of sychronizing

2008-06-15T01:49:00.002+08:00

Here are a couple of songs I'd love to recommend. They're all from 311. P-Nut nailed everything with his bass! Definitely the coolest bassist in my eye. Their one of those who plays together, instead of over-using a member or skill. This is what a band should be like, all standing out together.

1. Champagne
2. All mixed up
3. Summer of Love
4. Paradise
5. Beautiful Disaster

Lots of thing has changed, and is coming up. I'm just hoping for the best.

Mack the Knife

2008-06-06T05:50:00.005+08:00

So looking forward to try the trails in KL/Selangor when I get back. Be sure to give me call for you guys who're interested to ride trails. Apparently, there are a few tracks. How legible it is, I don't know. We'll have to see. I've always fantasized on having a roadbike, a trail bike and a downhill bike. It's easy to say when I'm basing it on zero budget at the moment. Those three bikes already adds up to an approximate 16,000 RM. I think that dream, can always remain as a dream and nothing close to reality.

Current Cell

2008-06-01T23:29:00.003+08:00

My current cell here in Perth, is very blessed I'd say. Running smooth, and somehow, I know that this cell is not made up by force but God's desire. Praise God that we can fellowship here in Perth and we're all maturing in Him. This is something that I can look back and smile about, knowing that I'm not doing this alone. :) I'm certain that God has plans for our cell, just like He does for the cell I attended back at home.

Lenny, Adrian and I

Amanda you're missing in the photo, and I know that. We'll take another one when you're here k? :) Happy Gawai to you, have a good one.

Will I sing Hallelujah?

2008-05-26T04:05:00.004+08:00

Sometimes, that whole feeling of not being 'fit' for God is just fairly natural, I suppose. But glory be to Him, for however down I am, with His grace and guidance, we overcame it. Together. It's just really wonderful sometimes, I don't even think 'wonderful' is the right term for my expression right now. It seems too mild. There should be this word that describes all his characteristics, all into one. There probably isn't any right now, for none of us can grasp it.

The Motorcycle Diaries gave me great inspiration. The passion that Che Guevara has, for what he believes in, he fought for it. Similar to this, the Weather Underground, and a lot more radicals that are pro-communists and socialists. Seems quite fair, and I totally understand what drove them to have done as such. The intentions are for good. Or put it in this word, 'peace'. Be it peace or not, I still believe the actions taken can always changed or be acted out in a whole different way. There's no point promoting peace, using violence. Apparently, people find the idealogy of wanting to make a point without a gun is 'useless'. I'd like to prove that very wrong.

Or even so, killing for freedom. Having to look at all this issues, that's when I'm assured that God is ever faithful and ever loving. The approach, I believe would be drastically different if God-fearing men were to lead. Then again, they'd probably already been doing so, just not recognized for it probably because of not being 'extreme' enough. Somehow, being extreme is good. But there's still a fine line, I believe that needs to be drawn between sanity and insanity. We're given a conscience to comprehend actions that needs to be taken. Sadly in these revolution cases, anger took over. Injustice could be really hard to digest. But God is an all-knowing and all-loving God. Justice lies in Him. I believe that God's agape love can overcome everything. And it did, indeed.

When God is blurry, and vague from our sight. We tend to take control of what's 'good' and 'bad' for ourselves, or even others. We create facts and follows them. We choose indulgence over something that is so great it, cannot be compared with. We make ourselves god, believing in our one and only effort. We make other God, because us humans love to replace God's position. We're so busy occupying ourselves with the temporary. We often complain about of our short of resources, when God has already provided what we need. Something I find very meaningful I learned today, is that we love to allow the enemy to steal and destroy from us.

I believe to sort out every confusion whether it is God-pleasing or not, falls down to its very purpose. I read, and learn, understood what life's purposes are. What separates the godly from the ungodly. How mysteriously awesome our God is. Imagine, love that we can far understand, because its unconditional. Love that we are redeemed. It just makes you want to kneel and cry.

:)

Dreadlocks

2008-05-23T03:04:00.003+08:00

Pretty tough wait.
Not too keen with it though.
But it's alright. Pam must be freakin out. :)

Pam: Omg don't do dreads, Perth is already bad enough, don't add on to it.

How sweet. :)

Renegades.

2008-05-22T03:26:00.003+08:00

Time for a little personal content.
With a more than willing smile, I know I'm ready to part with my hair.
The picture's just one of those things you know you'd do if you're not gonna be seeing
it for quite some time.

FreeRiding

2008-05-21T12:44:00.001+08:00

Vegan

2008-05-18T03:03:00.004+08:00

Photoshoot went well. Praise God that everything went smoothly. It's awesome how I've been having all this back up plans in case of all the other factors that don't allow the shoot to be as it is, but God made a way for me. An ad (photography based), for Macbeth's Eliot Velcro. My greatest thanks to Ling, and Ivan. It was hell of a tiring day. Thanks for your time guys, won't happen without your help. Appreciate it!

Kakula Sisters, you're the best!

World's Shrinking.

2008-05-16T03:18:00.004+08:00

Who would'a thought. A friend from primary six, showed up playing table tennis in my student housing. Coincidence need to take a break for a second here. There's just too much to it. This fella didn't change one bit since the many years we last met. Glad to know he's doing pretty well now. Hopefully I'm remembered for more positive related things, more than the other. God has a plan! Oh yes He does!

Michael's Flatlanding Photography.

2008-05-12T19:05:00.007+08:00

Jed's Free Agent is back in business!

WOW

2008-05-11T02:43:00.003+08:00

The new 2008 XTC 2. This one retails for supposedly AUD$1,595, but it's going for $300 less because of the 'mega sale', if that's even a sale, who knows. Anyways, among all the trail bikes, I have to say, hard tails' the way to go!

Can't seem to find any complains in this model series.

RockShox Dart 3, 100mm suspension fork

SRAM X.5 trigger shifting, X.5 rear derailleur

Hayes MX-4 mechanical disc brakes

WTB Dual Duty XC rim/Formula disc hub wheelset

Loving those who hate you.

2008-05-10T01:41:00.003+08:00

Is it not time to share your food with the hungry, and bring the poor man into your house who has no home of his own? Is it not a time to give clothes to the person you see who has no clothes, and a time not to hide yourself from your own family? Then your light will break out like the early morning and you will soon be healed.
Then you will call, and the Lord will answer. You will cry, and He will say, "Here I am." If you take the weight of sin away, and stop putting the blame on others and stop speaking sinful things and if you give what you have to the hungry, and fill the needs of those who sufer, then your light will rise in the darkness, and your darkness will be like the brightest time of day.

You have heard that it has been said, "You must love your neighbor and hate those who hate you." But I tell you, love those who hate you. Pray for those who do bad things to you and who make it hard for you. Then you may be the sons of your Father who is in heaven. His sun shines on bad people and on good people. He send rain on those who are right with God. If you love those who love you, what reward can you expect from that? Do no even the tax-gatherers do that?
If you say hello only to the people you like, are you doing any more than others? The people who do not know God do that much. You must be perfect as your Father in heaven is perfect. - Jesus Christ, Matthew 5;43-48.

What more can I say, really? Rejoice, for our Lord is full of love, and greatness.

One of the reasons to love bikes.

2008-05-07T19:26:00.002+08:00

Downhill biking's one of the many things I'd wanna try.
Take a look, and you'll know what I mean. Nothing but adrenaline rush!

High.

2008-05-06T01:43:00.003+08:00

I've encountered a wondrous experience yesterday. So much, I couldn't describe it because you probably can't even grasp my message.

I'm sure no one knows, but lately I've been really down. Problems you wouldn't bother knowing. I'm going straight to my point. As if God is handling the situation, which I believe He did. My parents called in, asking me if I'm alright and what am I up to, and I let it all out. Although unwilling to utter it, I have to admit, I guess to a certain extent, I was depressed. Just very, very down. And it was just too comforting, being able to hear from them. Not only that. It's great knowing that my parents not only advice and strengthen me. They kept me referring to the higher one.

I'm going to be specific in this one. Before I start, I've read the 'Save Me from Myself' book from Brian Welch. It's basically a book that the ex-guitarist of Korn wrote, saying his life changing experience before and after knowing the Lord. There was this part of a chapter when he prayed the Jesus, while being high on speed (drug). He said, that God's presence, overtook the high of the drugs.

So last night, right after cell with Adrian and Amanda, I went on to that conversation with my parents. I voiced out the issue in cell, then with my parents. And that was unplanned. After that, with the intention of going to bed, I prayed a simple prayer. Up to this point, I can't recall when exactly God's presence hit me, but I knew once it did, I started tearing. And tearing. And tearing. And this is special, because last night, God showered his presence to me, more than any other time. I went numb, and high. It felt great. Felt super! I just wanted to dwell in that presence and stay that way forever, and I meant forever. Plus, it seemed like forever anyways. It was the longest ever. All these mixed emotions. Being so filled with joy, touched, thankful, and a million more that I couldn't even express.

And I guess, Adrian and I had a chat about, whether we'll be able to ask God things that somehow don't matter but matter to a certain extent? Like when we're faced with him, do we have the opportunity to ask about the universe, or more detailed, unanswered questions about life. What's a conspiracy, and what's not?
That's not the case that I experienced, and now I know the answer. All I could afford to do, was tear with joy and praise and thank Him for, everything!

Today, I got up, filled with joy I can't explain. It's super, knowing the assurance God has given me, no matter the bad or good comes. My depression, is long gone. And I'm just filled with joy. Something I'd wish I can express, or even better, you can experience. I believe the day will come for you. God is great!

And here's a flat photograph we've taken tonight. Wouldn't exchanged any of my flat mates for any other. This is a blessing as well. I believe so.

We're all good looking, in our own ways.
Once I know each and everyone of them, I must say,
they're a bunch of nice guys!

Mastering my point of view.

2008-05-05T01:07:00.003+08:00

Wouldn't want to sound like I suffered from depression, but I guess I was in the state for a little while. A little while is enough to really pull my spirits down. Enough for me to lose my faith. There were times I just tried to sleep my worries away. It wouldn't work. Sooner or later, I'd face it. Then God spoke to me.
I praise God that my parents were there for me, to acknowledge my state and had given me advices that I just needed at the time. God set us free to build up one another. It's true. I feel free now. My burden is surrendered to Him. Once again, I praise with a joyous heart. And I couldn't say more. God strengthen me.

This is, to you as well Adrian my friend. For the fellowships we've been through. I know you can break free from what's keeping you distress. Take it easy.

I DO NOT TAG ALONG

2008-05-04T02:31:00.002+08:00

So you heard me already. Forget tagging me, cuz I won't bother playing along. Like I said, I don't mind telling you who I am/what I wanna achieve/what are my shittiest/best moments. But only when I feel like it. Tagging along somehow seems like assignments all over again. I'm already unhappy with the fact that I've been told what to study and research on. And now this?

PS: Non of that is directed to you Shawn. Don't wanna sound rude or being difficult. But you know me well better than 90% of my entire friends. So yeah. Good day. Don't mean to say tagging sucks but.. okay I won't try like I want to convince anyone here. Fin.

Sam's.

2008-05-03T17:53:00.001+08:00

2008-04-30T00:43:00.002+08:00

i give up.

WWJD?

2008-04-28T02:58:00.002+08:00

After coming up with different thoughts, both random and discussed. I think I've finally came up with that one big question of life's goals. Been always questioned with all these big questions which I can't really answer. That's maybe because I have this stereotyped thinking, somehow linking it to career or jobs. Something I wanna touch about in this post.

I think after a fair discussion and exchanging opinions, I can boldly say that I'm not going to be involved in a certain one thing for too long. That's what I want to do. This also depends on my life calling as well. Of course, sacrifices will be made. People may be thinking that I am not a loyal/entrusted person for my constant changes (which some people experience due to their attitude or somehow something might've happened I don't know). But this is entirely different. I have that desire of wanting to try out different things, experiencing different culture and workplaces, learning the big things to petty little technical things.

The world may run with an education system that may say a doctor is more 'useful' than a bus driver/janitor. But being given a question of contribution, I think you can't compare one another by giving a certain rank whatsoever. An engineer contributes more than a technician, says who? A executive more than a bus driver, says who? If you have the opportunity to be an executive, at the same time having that passion of driving a bus, why not do it? There's two parts to it. One that has no choice but to be a bus driver, another one that has different options but chooses not to because it's frowned upon. I'm speaking about the second one. The world's education system somehow restricts some of us to learn/do things we don't want to. I honestly do not mind gaining knowledge, if the course doesn't run by a set of rule. Then again, everything has to have a system, which I totally understand. But wouldn't it be nice if it doesn't. I would love to learn about the Mayans, the Pyramids, the supernaturals, distinct subcultures, the universe, religion, etcetera. But not on a free time or as a hobby.

If it'd be ran in a course, I'd not complain at all. Guess I'll not allow the particular system and people's opinion restrict me from whatever I want to do. Hey, it's still education, I don't think its a waste of time at all. We make decisions that affect us, and some that even affect others. Just have to be wise in whatever decisions we make, and when the sacrifices has to be made, whether its worth while or not.

So far, I guess nothing allows me to. And so, all I'm going to do is switch jobs and enjoy myself as I enjoy living my life. It'd be a good learning process. If given a choice, I would not want to spend 40 years sitting in the same desk. Don't get me wrong, I admire people who can do that, but I can't, that's just not me. I'd go out and experience what God has created. What God has made so beautiful, to the things/places that man chooses to screw up. I'd love to speak to strangers and impact them one way or another. Adrian showed me an article in the papers, and its about two ministers that are pilots, flying their private plane around the world to preach the word of God. How cool is that. I totally don't mind packing up to follow them. I'll entrust whatever I have in mind to Him. Workable or not, I'm sure He'll make a way. He have been anyways. I have my wildest dreams. Now time for me to patch up a couple of things, and start living it.

SmallBikeBigBody.

2008-04-24T19:09:00.008+08:00

Just some photos of us flatlanding. Been slacking a lil' bit here and there. Rear brakes's gotta go. I realize I've got less to say these days. We'll see what happens soon. Out.

NavySeal Tank. Idea made reality.

2008-04-21T04:16:00.003+08:00

:)

2008-04-17T15:55:00.002+08:00

Shawn & I at 7 years of age :-)

Updates

2008-04-17T00:36:00.002+08:00

Not so much of an informational post.
Just wanted some time to blabber out my current state.

After such a long hidden inner passion, I finally got hold to start putting it to practice. The ever first time I was exposed to flatlanding, I knew I wanted to give it a try. But the place and time wouldn't allow me to. For one, I haven't come across any bike stores that sells BMX's. Plus, even if I had one, there wouldn't be time.

Not like I have plenty of time to spare here, but I try to set aside time to just enjoy myself. I almost missed out on my flatland passion. Now that I can finally do it, I'll take my time to let it out. If it wasn't for moving to Western Australia, I suppose I wouldn't have the chance to do this. The bikes coming back home with me definitely.

I'm also quite hesitant, about the field that I'm in right now. I'm pretty sure only a couple of you have heard from me and know what's going on. Won't go into much detail, but about life decisions, I'll keep you updated. Still waiting to hear from God.

Directions

2008-04-13T13:48:00.002+08:00

For all the things I've chased some time ago, I see how those don't last forever. Not even the interest in it. That's probably why the 'wild at heart' book was written hey? Who wants to settle down to just do one thing in a lifetime? That's unsatisfying. I wanna try as many things and travel to as many places in my lifetime. Again, the 'try as many things' is in my own terms. It is now, that I totally have the urge to stop being so boring being with a bunch who thinks they're all that. Pardon me.

Inspiring. Powerful Testimony.

2008-04-10T19:05:00.003+08:00

Finally, finished reading the 'Save Me From Myself' book, authored by Brian 'Head' Welch. Definitely helped reinforce my faith in God. Strongly recommend this one to you.

The best alone time ever.

2008-04-05T04:16:00.002+08:00

It's 4.20 in a Saturday morning. Listen, I don't usually write things such as this. I was trying to get a good sleep because I had an early morning plan tomorrow. I think I'm fairly patient, and easy but these two guys really bothered my sleep. Up to a point, I called security. The security is basically someone you call whenever you have things to complaint, and in this case my complains I know, is reasonable. Two of em are drunk, topless and in their jeans. 'Wrestling' each other. Four in the morning, people can actually find time to 'wrestle' each other in the grass topless and have a good laugh about it. Sometimes, I wonder whether they're 'outgoing' or I'm the supposedly 'old-fashioned'. Thats not the point of my post though. Rarely, I blog about my current state of feelings. The fellas kept me so awake now. Windows are open, air is pleasantly cooling. The place is quite, and the lights are dim. A sudden urge to listen to Angels and Airwaves, at this moment. It should give me the feeling I thought I can get. And it did! Such a, I don't wanna say 'wonderful' because so generic, but I can't seem to find the exact words. It's the alone time, that I really treasure now. Where everyone's asleep, and I can ponder on God, life, space and planets. A feeling so great, only I can experience right now. More of a 'wonderland/fantasy' world that is created for peace and love. What a great thing to live on. Of course, it isn't reality, but to ponder on that and live on it for a couple of minutes by myself really gets me thinking. Stirs my imagination and feeling in a way I couldn't describe because it isn't something burdensome. Rather, something that gets you to smile and relax. Just reclining your office chair and lay back, and ponder. I'm contented. The problems are laid aside as I take a seat into the ride of knowledge and wisdom. Knowledge and wisdom that are not the ones being measured in the general human terms, but in God's measure. I'm touched and inspired. I'm a dreamer. A positive one.

"Oh God I feel like I'm in for it now
It's like the rush has gone straight to my brain
But my voice is as lonely as loud
As I whisper the joy of this pain
And suddenly
You've done it all
You've won me over
In no time at all
And now I'll stop the storm if it rains
I'll light a path far from here
I'll make your fear melt away
And the world we know disappear."

I now understand their vision.

The Forgotten Misguided 08'

2008-04-04T03:54:00.007+08:00

Standing firm.

2008-03-31T02:55:00.003+08:00

It makes me think now, looking at some of the people getting real distressed with problems. Small or big, no matter the scale, it's really how you learn to handle it. I think I have pass the phase of worrying too much. But of course, as people would say, if you don't worry, you're being too comfortable. That right there, I believe is questionable. My point is, the things that makes my stand a little shaky now, tends to be so different from the ones that use to bug me. Positive attitude is one thing, and I believe its not entirely just that. Relying on God is another whole thing. The big and small struggles that took place, seems the same to me now. It's still, a struggle. To comprehend? Who needs to?
God has taught me to take problems lightly. No need to make a big fuss about it, or tell the world how much of a difficult you're in. Just ask, and pray and He will provide. I've just been given so much from God, that I can't help but to share. Who needs a lending hand?

Patience is another. A person has showed me the type of patience that Christ has been teaching. Well, not one, but many. This one, in particular, blow me away with how a person can choose. Choices, is what God has given to us. It's such a privilege to be given a choice. And who are the ones that will choose to use it wisely? We can choose to look at a person's inner beauty, and not outward or the filthy things one does outside. Or simply how a person dresses. Just because it looks weird 'generally', does it really matter to you? Like if there's one person, just one person besides you in this world, would you care? And if you said yes, will that affect how you would talk to that particular person? I'm going way off topic here from the start, but you know how when a person says things spontaneously, those are the ones that really makes you think?

Usually, they say this. Wake up, and stop drowning yourself in the world. It's time to come back to the Lord. Seeing how most of us are so shaken in our faith, that causes our actions that are extremely frowned upon. But listen to this instead. If you have made a decision to be devoted to God, you will. Unless you allow yourself an opportunity to take a rest from living a Christ life. So, don't blame God for your wrong doing. And don't sigh about living a Christian life, for it is productive. So much that only God sees it. Don't 'promote' your Christian life to be so miserable and sacrificial, because Jesus didn't. If you would really look into experiencing it, it really isn't. At one point I thought myself that no one could live a life that's God-pleasing. But now I completely take back those words/thoughts. And why you ask? Because its simply, a life that is victorious! Now, to mention that I'm living a life that's victorious is a pretty big claim you'd say. But I never exaggerate things (at least not learn to anymore) so know, that there is a huge and awesome mystery that lies beneath a life that awaits you.

The Perfect Spirit.

2008-03-25T02:27:00.003+08:00

Once, even myself gets thrilled and running with the whole feeling of a little 'fun'. The kind of fun most of the people my age understands. But not to the point where, it actually became a part of my lifestyle. It's funny though. Now, I plainly don't get thrilled by anything anymore. Just knowing God's greatness, is sufficient to spend the rest of my days. Think I'm boring? I think I simply don't do most of what everyone else does. Take it this way. I don't find excitement it all the fuss everyone's talking about. I don't find my joy in clubs. I don't find the thrill in 'men talk'. I don't find a my talent that special anymore. The fact that God has made everyone special in specific things, is already mind-boggling. Obstacles somehow, do get in my way, and in everyone else's. The way to tackle it reflects on how positive and God fearing you would be.

I learnt great things. I have been taught, that we can't please everyone in the world. But there is also sacrifice, for a sacrifice shows devotion. I have experienced, that silence is one of the biggest tools a God fearing man can use, yet being firm in our words and stand is crucial. I learnt a try, is a try. No one man, shall preach the first words and expect a miracle to take place the next second. For a seed grows as it gets watered. Trials might being making its way to you, but be still and know that He is God.

The world might preach similar to what God's people will. Yet half truth is a whole lie. Our Lord God is so flawless that He cannot be a 'half'. Sometimes, it takes a man to come to humility and understand, rather than speaking a thousand words and make a fool of himself. Oh yes, I come across with em everyday. How smart he may sound, he'll be blown away by God's greatness. Three years knowing my Lord Jesus, and it felt like He has taught me forever. God was there, and will always be around. Worldly happiness shall fade away and come to misery. It just gets more exciting by the day!! It's a joy worth shouting for! The blinded men will never get understanding of the joy as I speak, no matter how the times I repeat. God, take hold and shine Your glory!

I wish I could tell as many, on how God has touched me. Made me cry, humble, and ponder upon his greatness! I wish, I could be like Eunice, who had the ever loving heart to share and reflect on the Christ likeness. I'm starting to miss her. Yet I worry not. For it's all in God's hands. If you've known me for who I was almost 10 years ago or even 4, you should know I speak no words close to what I just did. Yet I'm changed. And it was Him who did it. Praise be to Him!

The Secrets Men Keep.

2008-03-23T12:58:00.002+08:00

"The Secrets Men Keep"
How Men Make Life and Love Tougher Than It Has to Be
Stephen Arterburn

Have yet to read this book. I'm sure it's pretty similar to the well recommended 'Wild at Heart' book, that explains why God has made men to be as they are. Why they talk, act and feel in different ways, but universally similar.

Another book I bought, is titled 'Secret Believers', basically explains on what happens when muslims turn to Christ. Written by Brother Andrew and Al Janssen, author of the multi-million selling God's Smuggler.

Once again, God has reminded me how He does things in great ways. So great we can't even grasp. Happy Easter everyone. It's good knowing the background of Easter :)

Go Vegan!

2008-03-18T01:30:00.004+08:00

I was given an assignment, and it was to conduct a still life photoshoot. Not the best photography for me, but being given an assignment, I pretty much had no choice. I sat down down at my balcony, giving my imagination a treat while listening to Angels and Airwaves. It was awesome. My imagination wasn't drawn to work though. It was pretty much my interpretation of what the song made me feel like. It gave me that hope I needed, knowing that God is almighty and loving. Just how Tom quotes it from the Bible, "Turning water into wine". Now I'm not too particular about choosing an object for a still life photo shoot. Then it took me a few seconds, thinking I just bought two pair of Macbeths. One for me, another for her. That's three now by the way. I thought it would be pretty cool if I had chosen the Eliot as my item! So i gave it a little bit of research, and I found a couple of interesting things. I knew Macbeth was founded by Tom, but not sure what does it have to do with the Vegan thing. Tom, being a Vegan, maybe an initial thought. But I went through the official site, and learned that all Macbeth footwears are vegan as well! Made by the best vegan material. So that explains the whole 'marijuana-like leaf'. That leaf is actually from the Hemp plant. Almost similar to the Marijuana leaf, coming from the same family but different somehow because Hemp plants are used widely to manufacture products of wear.

The few facts just made me more proud of wearing one. Though I'm not a Vegan. But who cares. You musicians, extreme sports athletes, and vegans, let's all join the Macbeth Vegan movement!

Guess who I met few hours ago in my student housing. Ian Jerome Leong! For you who grew up with me, you know how much of a coincidence is that! And it's so ironic, how I wanted to post things about Macbeth when the last post Pam did, was that. Oh yes, that is your soon-to-be shoe, Ms. Muljono.

PaintJob

2008-03-16T21:33:00.006+08:00

For days, I've been vowing to give my bike a paintjob, but I couldn't afford any time to spare for it. Now, finally did it. Hopefully I don't get too hooked on about biking. Even posting this got me thinking if I'm starting to become a bike freak. Anyways, the previous color on it was metallic silver with blue stickers on every corner. Couldn't help it but to give it a 'life'. I mean, the previous look was such a pitty. I thought of giving it a flat/matte white alongside with flat/matte black for rims, suspension, and handle that compliments the white. Almost making it like a stuntbike or a Bmx. My very first attempt of a paint job. Turned out okay actually. I don't long for a road bike anymore.

Random Bike Trips

2008-03-15T23:06:00.004+08:00

Como Beach Bike Trip.

2008-03-08T22:42:00.018+08:00

I bought a second-hand bike the past three days, and have been really putting a lot of use to it. Saves me so much time, instead of walking. Plus, I get to go on cross-country trips with Sam and Adrian. Last night, we went biking in the midnight, almost to the city which is approximately 40 minutes ride. I'll never be able to enjoy biking in KL as much as I do here. This place is made for bikes! The pathways, roads and bridges.

Just came back from a trip to Como Beach. The guys went before this, and told me the amount of jellyfishes are actually scary. It breeds so 'much' up to a point its ridiculous. But I suppose they're not poisonous, because swimming in the rivers is not prohibited. Como Beach is not really a beach, but a river bank. Got its name probably because of the sands, therefore it qualifies the title 'beach'. Again, a 30 minute ride to Como. The thrill of speed and the wind is indescribable. Never had so much fun biking.

Here are the bunch of photos.

One of the hundreds of washed ashore dead jellyfishes.

Poking the jellyfish with a twig.

Adrian, Sam and I

A gigantic pelican. How beautiful.

Us in Como.

The jetty's really long.

A new hobby.

Losing your heart.

2008-03-08T13:40:00.002+08:00

I planning to write this post, to so agree a hundred percent with what Pam had written in her blog. It's about how 'motivated' people can so easily lose themselves. Everyone wonders, believers and non-believers. I myself, always have crazy thoughts, and wonders about the littlest to the biggest things. Want an example? Here it goes, I wonder, if God were to create a third sex, what and how would it be like? But see, there's no point because it's simply impossible.
Back to my main point. I have also placed myself in a situation and teachings where people say, 'Nothing is impossible'. Let's see that again. Up to a certain extend, it's applicable. If you want to achieve anything you want, you do it with all your heart and soul, you'd probably achieve at least something very close to it. Then again, to believers, we have to always be extremely careful with the things we 'desire'. Like i said, 'A success without God is no success at all.' Most will be easily misled, and misinterpret things such as goals in life.

I dare to state that I'm not a negative person, after all the experiences and right teachings, I now see the good from bad, the right from wrong from a clearer point. The 'good' of the world does not mean 'good' in God's eyes. If you claim that nobody that stop you from achieving your goals, I believe that's a very strong statement you made. Think again. I once myself, lost my heart and was misled. Such an egoistic pain that thinks I knew everything. But with God's grace, He sent people to tell me that I'm such a small person no matter how 'big' I think I am. No I'm not be-littleing myself, but we as believers, are already aware how mighty and powerful God is. Your 'highest dreams' is probably is 'smallest tiny-est' thing to God. But He is also ever-loving, and blesses those who live according to His will.

Again, God has answered my prayer. There're too many words to express my gratitude and thankfulness to Him. For He's given Pam the understanding and Spirit to decern things, and understand things the world will NEVER understand or comprehend. It's no rocket science, it's God. Pride is no different from money. It could take your heart away without you even realizing it. Though I'm so regretful of the level of pride I had, I thank God for humility and that I'm now slow-to-anger. Cheers sayang! I'm so, so happy for you, you have no idea!!!

Father's Love.

2008-02-28T03:29:00.003+08:00

How I get so spiritually and emotionally touched, is amazing. I've always thought that my walk with God before I came was strong. Maybe it was, to an extend. But ever since reaching this very unfamiliar place, I dare say my walk with God is now stronger. Praise God for that. He's made me realized a whole lot of things, that I hardly notice before. To start of, my testimony is one. How can an extreme skeptic and atheist, shallow yet egoistic person like me experience His blessings? I have no idea. It was the right, and the most perfect timing that He allowed me to see the Holy Spirit, physically with my very own eyes. He knew me deep within, that I would be the first person who quotes "Seeing is believing". Not exactly the faith that God is looking for, but He knew I needed a first push to knowing life.

The most miraculous things are going on at one to the other end of the world, and many people do not know. There are plenty of motivational talks about achieving success. I personally think, success without God is no success at all. Also, the definition of success in general terms is to have all the money, possession and power in the world. But upon experiencing God's plan and His love, the definition of success has a total different meaning to it. I now see His purposes, and His love for every, single, person here on earth. Let it be a thief, murderer or a fake. He says "Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you". It was Him, that had given me a compassionate heart.

Now, I am at a stage, where nothing else matters. You probably think that you'll NEVER be able to understand me or experience the things I did. Well, prepare your hearts for one day, you may just get it. The whole questions about life's existence and the universe is out of my head now. For God had opened my eyes. What a wonderful God. He's known me since I was in my mother's womb, and in March of the year 2005, He called out and reached out to me.

I fall to my knees and praise you, awesome God.

If there was one question about what's
the best thing ever happened to me in my lifetime,
I'd say knowing You, and that answer will lasts for entire walk and journey of my life.

Fremantle Trip

2008-02-26T15:47:00.010+08:00

Took a tour to Fremantle. Was a pretty pleasant trip. Initially, we planned to go for a buffet, but seeing the amount of buses we took to get there, we decided, might as well visit Fremantle. By the way, besides bus as a transportation, there aren't any options for us. So our legs do the part. It was a big bunch I'd say, even some of them I have yet to know well. I bought a book in this secondhand bookstore in Fremantle. It's basically Kurt Cobain's journal, with his handwritings in it. Everything detail he had jotted down, to letters, to drawings. Something I think worth e-bay-ing for, so I bought it.

The walk to search of the buffet restaurant.

There's this church, designed minimalism.
Something new to me. Very near the Melville Church.

Our buffet. Jed had only 1 meal. What a waste man! He thinks we did some form of meditation before our buffet. Most of us, big eaters. There, Hiroki told us about his weird
'naked boat' trip where all of them have a naked party. God. Another reason for me not to like Japanese culture. Thanks Hiroki.

A street show was going on while we were there. Apparently, this pirate holds a Guinness World Record for swallowing swords or something. That, or I didn't get the 'joke'. Here he is, entertaining the crowd with his sarcasm. It was really, really entertaining I have to say. Good job keeping the crowd together!

Jed became on of the volunteers.

On top of his 'ship'.

Wow.

Night Wanderers.

2008-02-25T00:35:00.006+08:00

Like most of every nights, friends and I took walks around our area. Though everything closes at 5pm. After that, the ones out are pretty much just drunkards. We decided to go nuts before we were given our assignment briefs. Playing brain teaser games, and 'pepsicola', changing the name to 'tiger heineken' to make it sound 'cooler'. I can't imagine. It was something I wouldn't want to miss. It's fun to just hang out, do stupid things every once in a while. Let me re-phrase that. Stupid 'controlled' things. Away with the photos.

Adrian jokerface.

Jed's impression of a stunt.

Adrian's impression of Jed's stunt.

There we are, sitting in the middle of a carpark near Coles, the only ones forming a circle, talking about things. Even playing brain teaser games. I'm not sure if you've ever heard of
the 'Mosquito Game' and 'Black Magic'. I myself, not very fond of Black Magic. Took me almost a week in know the answer. Maybe I'm just slow in that sense. Or I tend to think more than you people!! *laughs*

I've got pompoms.

Incase You're Wondering.

2008-02-20T03:04:00.006+08:00

Really no complaints at all concerning the place that I'm living in right now. It's beautiful, really. That's how my room and all other rooms look like. Pretty spacious and well facilitated. More than I imagined.

That's my block. Pretty ain't it.
We're up in the middle floor, and that window
in between the other two is my room.

View from my room.

Took a little walk just to snap the sunsets here.
They're awesome. Beautiful sky, beautiful clouds.
Total peace.

Main entrance.

Pretty place, good for the bunch who likes to stay at home or so. City's pretty far, so it's pretty isolated from bars and clubs which is great news to me! So long.

Hello People!

2008-02-19T23:39:00.003+08:00

Yes, posting it from here. Only been able to get hold of the internet a week later, today. I have tons of catching up to do, with everyone. But I'll sum the whole thing up for now, saying God has been with me. Being detached from everyone else, feels great in a sense that I can feel the moment of trials. And I can say, that I'm definitely more in line with Him now. I met great friends, and surprisingly, friends that I can testify and share with! Awesome!

Will post more some other time.
I lost all my photos. Yes. All of em'. Enough said.
I miss you people a lot!

oh hey, I somehow managed to get em back!

Family Gathering.

2008-02-11T03:43:00.000+08:00

I'm sure everybody else has their Chinese gatherings and house visits. Here is one of my family visits to my aunt's house. To start off, the dinner was great. Simple, kampong chicken with curry prawns and vege. Something I'll be crave when I'm in Perth. Will be leaving in two days, and I think spending a couple of days re-visiting my relatives is one of the nicest things to do. Being around my noisy playful cousins, and my uncles, aunties and grandfather. It was nice. Simple, yet fulfilling. Both the time with them and the fun. The older I get, the more I start to treasure family values. Something people can't force to invent. My mom got hold of the camera, and took the night away with these photographs.

Such a sweet night. Love it.

Good ol' times.

2008-02-09T03:38:00.000+08:00

Been browsing through alot of old pictures lately, and I found this photograph. We all look so different back then don't we? My god, so much has changed ever since. Both the in and out. Something I could look back at and feel good about. Good that I have so many pictures that I can reflect on, laughing back at all our faces when we were much younger. Something, we're going to keep doing in years to come as well.

Children of the War

2008-02-08T03:50:00.001+08:00

Mara Salvatrucha 13

I've seen documentaries on the MS 13 (Mara Salvatrucha) gang before, it was once aired on television. If I'm not mistaken, the National Geographic. But they have an even more proper and detailed documentary called 'Children of the War', also filmed to show the lives and activities of the MS13 gang members. If you're not familiar with it, the MS 13 is known to be the most violent gang the and fastest spreading gangs in the world. The total accumulation of the gang members, worldwide counts up to 100,000 individuals and still grows rapidly everyday. I didn't think there is another more sophisticated version of documentary than the one I've seen before, so now I'm really eager to look for the 'Children of the War'. In good hopes, I'll be able to find it.

This is the typical Mara Salvatruchan gang member's appearance.
Alot of them though, are look just like an average citizen.

Gang Sign. Originated from the concerts of
Ozzy Osbourne, the 'rock' finger gesture.

Part 1 of 5.

To know further about the MS13, log on to Youtube, it's quite a reliable source providing these documentaries. Be sure to find a lot of shocking insights about the group there. Totally reminds me of City of God. Just 100 times more powerful!

Sticks.

2008-02-07T02:53:00.000+08:00

The three drum sticks I've been using so far.

Have not tried Vic Firth's yet, but so far I'm really comfortable with the Vater sticks.

What's a part of me.

2008-02-05T02:35:00.000+08:00

I think I've already passed the stage of recognizing a friend to be a true friend, and just another person you know. And I'm more than glad that true friends does things that surpasses other friends. It's not about merely knowing what a I like or dislike but coming to really understand me. Every single thing down to my thoughts. Everyone has flaws, I do have a whole lot of em as well yet some people sees passes it and not only accept me but also taking the time to talk to me about correcting myself.

Everyone has their close circle of friends I suppose, and I thank God for mine. I cherish you guys man. One of the best parts are definitely growing up as individuals, encouraging one another to what we thought was wrong and right. What is okay not to do. What and who we are. Rather than just another gathering of people, having fun. Fun can be very beneficial, but having fun in certain ways I don't agree to, ends up being a waste of time. (and it a lot of cases, money) It makes a lot of difference to me. I learned to set my priorities right, taking advices from these wonderful individuals. Of course I'm still learning, and will always do until I leave Earth.

HouseWarmin.

2008-02-04T23:42:00.001+08:00

Yensun moved to the Saffa cluster in Desa ParkCity. Quite a whole bunch of us were invited to go look see. The food, was great! Once again, a post that doesn't say quite much but another one that's filled with photos you don't want to see. There. Ohyea, have a good time in Melbourne Yensun! Don't know whether I'll actually go there during my break. Most probably I'll go there and Sydney. KuanShen says the skiing is a must-experience. Thanks for the invitation, we enjoyed it.

Only have these two in the meantime. It's so irritating that my last 3-4 posts' photos are taken from cellphone cameras. It's so horrible. But expect a lot more of these blurred, out-of-the-frame pictures.

Dream from God.

2008-02-03T03:49:00.000+08:00

Just noting this down for myself, to reflect and incase I have forgotten. In the morning of 26th January, God has given revealed to me a dream, that interprets and something happened on the night of the day itself. Building's foundation was shaken, collapsed and I've survived it. Truly a great dream, that lets me know the difference between a normal dream and a dream from God. It's a start now for trials in my life. Listen and be still.

Just the ones.

2008-02-02T03:27:00.000+08:00

What turned out to be a 'surprise' for me. It was a nice night though. Just the couple of us, having an awesome dinner serving. Thanks for the night guys, it was fun. Wasn't the biggest, most expensive one, but again less is more in this case.

So rare and difficult to get pictures of my closest friends ever.

Church members. Rebecca at the back, Peiyi, Sonia, Peiwern and Brandon.

This time with Lovey.

They're the most out spoken people I've ever known.
I guess that's the reason they're the closest to me.

Can't stop talking.

What changed my life, forever.

2008-01-31T06:57:00.000+08:00

You could very possibly guess the things that I went through during my childhood. A very expected, nothing out of the ordinary life. Raised in a typical, Malaysian Chinese family that learns a little about family and respect towards the elders and all that. Once in every while, whenever we visited my grandparents who're Buddhist, I was told to utter and wish blessings upon everyone's health and well being in front of the altar. Part of me doesn't understand quite very much the need of prayer in the first place, and a part of me doesn't even know why God (Buddhists') appears in so many different ways and look like Chinese people. They do, don't they. Not many people taught me this, but I learn to embrace it myself, and I was proud that I knew how to do so. I knew how to respect people's beliefs and traditions, how to greet people and give gifts and all gestures to show love. But what is love, really? I didn't know exactly back then.
I couldn't care less about 'religion' or 'God' or the whole point of existence. Some people might have beliefs or thoughts to a certain level, but I just couldn't care less! Probably because I knew there wasn't going to be any conclusion to any of this life's questions. Theories are just theories, facts can't be trusted because every fact seems distorted today. I too, perceived religion and especially Christians as goody-goodies that just need a hope for them when they're facing problems or whenever they feel like they don't belong to any society/group. I thought.

My family can be considered as one of the most skeptical family ever, for we love to reason things, and answer logically. And when I say 'logical', I mean in a standard that the majority of human beings can accept to be 'logical'. We love to call ourselves God, for we believed so much in whatever that we want for ourselves, we make it happen. (true, to a level)
In March 2005, something to big took place in my life. Something so big, it changed me from the way I look at life, the thoughts I had, the love I embrace and the way I talked. Never in my entire life, would I ever imagine that I would stand still and let someone talk to me and tell me about the love of Jesus. Never!! But God knew the whole person that I am, and did his works that gave me the patience to sit down, let a person talk to me about Christ and eventually receiving Him as my savior. "I'm now a Christian?!", I asked myself. What now?

It took me a couple of weeks, to get hold of the Bible, read it and really know what God and life is all about. The more I read and understand it, the more touched I was. Day by day, slowly filled by God's love. That emptiness that a person has no matter how much he/she indulges in satisfactory things of the world, can never be filled by the absence of knowing God and experiencing Him. It has nothing to do with morale values. There's a big difference in morale values and Christianity. Good value comes along as we embrace Christianity, but having good values like I once used to doesn't count that I know anything about Christianity. If I wanted to learn about being a better person, I'd pick up classes or motivational courses instead. I know I don't always come of writing this seriously, but I want to share this with you and I sincerely hope you would open up your heart to grasp this. I used to not have the will to ask to even wonder about this guys. But I know certain of you do, and if you are, there's nothing to be ashamed of wanting to know more. God is love.

Brian Welch's Speech.

2008-01-30T06:22:00.000+08:00

Updates of Brian Welch's latest video and testimony. Praise God Brian's eyes were opened.

Reunion.

2008-01-29T23:09:00.000+08:00

Never would I thought in a thousand years, that I'll have the chance to meet up and have a good ol' conversation with my classmates. Kev, PhuiYin and Bryan were generous enough to keep a time for some time out with me. I have to say, its been 4 years, and too many things have changed. Yet I never really regretted anything I'd say, for the person that I am right now. Things have changed for the better, really. Although a slight awkward being around the three people I always been with for those two years now, certain things, just never change. Not only that, seeing the person they are right now, makes me happy for them as well. Proud of you guys man. Thanks for the night guys. Appreciate it.

Tabloid Talk Shows.

2008-01-25T04:43:00.000+08:00

Had always been watching loads of tabloid talk shows to fill up my time, since I have problem sleeping in the night. These are some of the top few tabloid talk shows I watch on a daily basis. I'm pretty sure most of the Malaysian society would pay not to watch these tabloid talk shows because of its disasters, distort in relationship and a person's mind, joined in with all the other horrible things you could ever imagine. These are post-Oprah shows where most of the things you hear aren't filtered or even broadcast on television due to its explicit content, but a little truth never hurts every once in a while doesn't it. I don't recommend watching it a hobby though, its kinda depressing. I'm the guy that strongly believes that whatever a person is exposed to, let it be music or media or any simplest thing, he will be influenced by it. So let the positives fill your minds people. Don't be ignorant though.

PHIL DONAHUE

JERRY SPRINGER

JEREMY KYLE

How to be me 101.

2008-01-20T03:10:00.001+08:00

First, don't get involved with other peoples conflicts, it's not your business. Also, this ensures that you aren't caught up in their emotional turmoil. That's extremely detrimental to maintaining an aloof demeanor. State baldly, if you have to, that you won't get caught up in 'xyz' yada yada. People may be surprised (even angry at times) but they will respect your unwillingness to take sides in a conflict you care nothing about. Lol.
Be serene, don't let anything faze you, and always be prepared for any event. This tranquility will permeate your mannerisms and translate "cool" to the general public. It signals to others that you have a certain detachment which allows you to weave in and out of life's tangled webs without losing your vital cool.
Believe in yourself, but remember that arrogance makes people hate you. A quiet confidence (humble, yet proud of yourself) will endear people to you. Imagine a scale of 0 to 10, 0 being downtrodden and 10 being cocky arrogance. A 5, smack in the middle, is a safe bet, but let out subtle hints of a 7 or 8 to keep people from taking you for granted.
Don't show your pain. Screw what everyone heard or what rumors are going around or what people saw with their own eyes. If you want to be aloof, you must handle pain with as much dignity and grace as possible. Fall to pieces in the privacy of your own home or an empty restroom if you want or must, but keep it together in public. You must! Well, at least that's how I do it.
Smile mysteriously as if you have a secret nobody knows. Could be just for fun's sake. Gets people all the time. But don't do it for the attention, cuz it's annoying as hell.
Don't talk a lot. Less is more. Answer questions that people ask and don't speak at EVERY opportunity or lull in the conversation. Let a nod or some other body language convey your answers. When you do speak in greater detail, you'll find that people are more apt to listen than if you were to go shooting your mouth off like there's no tomorrow.
Be uncompromising in your style, speech, culture, whatever. No one can make you feel inferior without your consent. Treat others as equals, but take on just a slightly condescending edge if they grow disrespectful. That's necessary.
Most importantly- Believe you are mysterious, aloof, and enigmatic. You can act more openly around people you trust, but don't let everyone see that side of you.

Always be who you truly are. This ensures that your aloofness is as native to your character as possible and doesn't come off as forced or contrived. Don't ignore people you don't like. Treat them coldly, answer their questions politely, but let them know subtly that you don't like them without stooping to rudeness. Never be petty. This can bring you from "aloof" to "jerk" in a heartbeat. I sometimes cross the border between that easily though.
Sums most of my thoughts and characteristics.

I didn't know that my personality could actually be labelled (Not necessarily a good thing, but surprising), and I finally found it. It's good being told what kind of person you are sometimes. Slaps in you in the face regardless of the good or bad things you've contributed. Then again, people can change, through the powerful option. CHOICE. So, don't be all beaten up if you think you're an ass.

Good day guys.

Brain Vomit.

2008-01-18T01:03:00.000+08:00

Frankly, I find people very, very interesting. Those who aren't so bright (not speaking from an educational point of view by the way), who doesn't have a firm opinion about something, or even anything at all! This can be quite generic, but most of the time, turns out to be the nicer one. One that goes, "Hey! He drinks, and drives, never gotten in an accident before. Bloody cool he's like the shit!", or even "You know, I know this girl, who has like the hottest friends!" Okay maybe this isn't quite getting to you as my examples could be too generic again. These are the ones, that most seemingly to be the most easily brought and influence to thinking or even committing in things they probably regret in 5 years. You tell them about serious stuff, and they just stare blankly into your face, uttering the words you never thought came out of their mouths. Seriously people, get real and don't watch too much television.

Then there are the 'brighter' ones who often, has the 'best' answers and own opinion on yada yada. The one that everyone looks up to because of their 'guru' or 'mastery' title. High probability could be the main players of their industry and achieving a fair amount of success. Usually, expresses themselves the most. Couldn't shut the f*ck up for a second to stop listening to what others have say. (That could be the reason to their success! Try that some time, children.) Yesyes, having your opinion and believing it is a good thing. A very good thing, to be honest. But doesn't anyone has that little voice in you that says, you COULD be wrong about it? For instance, thinking that the little dude at the side of the class is like the most vulnerable guy ever existed. Or thinking, "oh well I'm all good now, no need for room of improvement in managing my family." I mean, come on fellas. That much of an ego can actually breathe in your small, weak and horrible body of yours? Tone it down a second won't you?

And finally, the ones I favor the most, usually the ones that you see me hanging around with. You know why? They seem to have a fair balance of absorbing what they're being told. Having to practise that sense of filtering what's wrong and right for them. Knowing that it 'could be' or 'could also not be' attitude. A fair amount of joke, laughter and nuisance, so is a fair amount of seriousness in their thoughts and decision making. Fair amount of care and love and appreciation. No it's not gay to care for one another, but let's not exaggerate people if you don't mean it that much. Thank God, for these minds. If the world's only filled with the two categories of people's minds I've mentioned above, there will be no longer a person that is worth sharing a conversation anymore.

I have learned that almost all of us puts on a facade/mask whenever they revolve around different people. I've learned to not hold grudges or to be fake with one another. Not to hold back a smile whenever I wanted to. Often times, people's mask thicken as they go through a certain phase in their lives which are unfortunately tough and saddens them. Therefore, resulting in such behavior. I then moved on, to grabbing I thought was best for me, saying what I thought was the smartest words. Well, see I thought I knew it all after going through a phase where people taught you 'how' to be a person. As it turns out, I beat myself to death by 'flaunting' my knowledge and experiences, and lost my inner soul. Yup, and thank God for people who were there to remind me who I am. In the end, we do, we do have to let go of the things and feelings that holds us down from achieving anything good for our sake, but ALSO remembering to keep certain values to ourselves and not throwing it away. Sometimes, we just forget the good sides of us, changing and becoming that nasty and cold person that everyone looks up to yet hates. Nobody has to ever take it to that extend. Everything is just a fair amount of balance.

Who and what are you?

ps: I have recently found out that SP has lost his six year old daughter from cancer last monday. Had been suffering from it for at least six months already. My deepest, deepest condolences to him and his family. It must've been so hard he couldn't come in the office.

The Best Selling Autobiography.

2008-01-16T00:42:00.001+08:00

I found out about this book, but didn't really plan look for it up till now. If anyone would do me a big favor, it'd be to just inform me if you happen to run into this copy because I didn't stand a chance looking in Malaysia's bookstores. None. So, remember, I'm a call away. Thanks.

Series of Photographs

2008-01-13T02:52:00.001+08:00

As I look back and reminisce,
these pictures bring back a thousand pleasant memories.

We all agree, that some specific things we experiences, stays tight to our minds, and others are no where near understanding it. Eventually, we figure that the choice
is always ours for us to make and so, make them good as when you recall it, it just seems so worth the while.

Cyber Sampler's

2008-01-07T21:03:00.000+08:00

Back again. About her new Cyber Sampler, these are some of the photographs. Not the clearest, but then of course, it's always something fun to do and see. The films are Fuji 400.

I miss her already.

Visit Indonesia 08'.

2008-01-07T13:54:00.001+08:00

20th Dec 07 - 6th Jan 08

How do I start. So yes, I've just reached back in KL last night and caught up with my family and friends again. Philip and I departed together and flew back together. Of course, he was there to see Eliz and her family. So we stayed separately but met up twice in Senayan City and Borobudur. There's just too much to say about a two and a half weeks trip. Took me hours just editing and uploading these photos. Basically, traffic is a mess, and the drivers there, are awesome! I mean, everyone's reckless yet such a low accident rate. Stayed in Serpong, where Pam and her family was such a hospitable family and treated me so well. I didn't really went to a lot of places, but at least I've tried all sorts of food there. Now for my own good, I'm gonna note this down.

Malls I've been to:
Sumarecon Mal Serpong (SMS)
Senayan City
Pondok Indah Mall
Mal Taman Angrek
Supermal Lippo Karawaci
BSD Junction/ ITC

Food I've tried:
Soto Mie
Mie Bakso
Nasi Goreng Mbak Ati
Lontong (CapGohMei Style)
Ayan Suharti
Nasi Liwet
Soto Betawi
Soto Madura
Sop Iga Sapi
Soto Ayam
Sop Buntut
Mie Ayam
Bakmi GM
Sop Merah
Empek-empek
Hokka-hokka Bento
Nasi Padang
Nasi Uduk
Nasi Campur Alu (Pontianak)
Q-Biq (Doughnut)
Tauhu Sumedang
Bumbu Desa (Sundanese)
Pecel Lele
Otak-otak
Buah Alpukat
Pisang Goreng (Indonesian Style)

We went to Jogja, to see Borobudur. The roadtrip was a long 10 hour drive there, and we only stop once to stay for a night. We passed by these towns.

Cirebon
Sumedang
Tegal
Semarang
Sala Tiga
Babat
Indramayu
Sleman Kampung (Stopped by)
Padalarang
Pamanukan
Kopeng

Once we're there, I took a good look and feel of Candi Borobudur, that used to be one of the 7 wonders of the world. The details of the landmark and the level of IQ of the people who built it during that century, unbelievable! Then, we ate dinner in Jogja, because it was flooding so badly we had to delay our journey back. We then head back on the same day and Pam's dad drove a crazy 39 hour drive, which he stopped by at some gas stations to sleep for 15 minutes of so. What a strong driver! Also, we went to Puncak and stayed a night there, celebrated Christmas as well, I had so much fun!

In SMS, where I posted the previous post.

Playing Putt-Putt near her house.
Didn't know it was as exciting!

Such a cute game. I like!

D'Cost, right beside OceanPark.

Pondok Indah Mal, trying on the famous Bakmi GM.

The 10 hour drive to Jogja.

We caught up with Philip, Eliz and her family.
We both reached on the same day in Jogja, coincidentally.

There, Candi Borobudur.

This is somewhere near the house of Manusia Akar,
you can check that out on Youtube.

In Puncak for Christmas.
Where one of Pam's uncle has this humongous house.

Om Agus.

Tante Elia. Opening presents session,
where I enjoyed the most!

The restaurant we stopped by in Puncak.

I love the Sop Buntut!
Which is the Ox's Tail soup delicacy.

Her house in Alam Sutera, Serpong.

Bandung. The cheapest and best shopping option
for both tourist and the locals.

Christmas in Puncak. Family photo, and a stranger.

A family that has taught me alot
about the term 'family' and 'letting go'.
Thanks for EVERY SINGLE THING!

4th day in Jakarta.

2007-12-23T12:39:00.000+08:00

Blogging now from Sumarrecon Mal Serpong, where Pam gets 3 hours of free internet service.

Met the Muljonos already lol!

Pictures will be displayed once I'm back! Philip I hope you're doing well in Bintaro. Till then.

Meet the Muljonos!

2007-12-20T06:32:00.000+08:00

Will be on hiatus from today till the very next year. Taking a trip to Jakarta to meet the Muljonos! Btw, we celebrated Shawn's birthday will an evening paintball game. I know. Each and every time someone blogs or mentions about paintball, they'll definitely show you a scar or bruise as an effect of the game. I have 2 myself, and the worst among the 12 of us. Dear Elvin shot me good in the neck, exposed and it's a bloody lump now bleeding and sh*t. Got another one near my wrist, and that looks like a crater. Bloody boil-looking wounds, watery ones. The pain was expected. The game was much fun. Not the neck part though. Have to walk around telling everybody it's not a love bite,hah!

Back to the topic, which is me visiting Pam and her family. Looking forward to places like Bandung and Burubudur, and watching season 9 of Friends with her! Gonna have to go through my checklist now. See you back in January. Later.

Hollywood Moms.

2007-12-18T17:38:00.000+08:00

Personally, the top three most charming Hollywood moms in my list.

Tina Fey.

Julia Roberts.

Kate Beckinsale.

when time stops.

2007-12-18T01:26:00.000+08:00

Been considerably free for the past month. Up to a point where I wake up, wanting to sleep again just to kill time. So we foosed out nights away, the very unprofessional manner. Went to Pavilion today. My first time. Didn't wanna go initially, but seeing that I might not be seeing any of that for the next one year, I decided to go check it out. It was a big, I mean huge disappointment though. Been hearing a lot from people and been seeing a lot about it from magazines but I gotta say, it's sorta boring. From where I come from, designer clothes, watches and all that doesn't make a place in my spendings, ever. Plus, there wasn't any entertainment at all. Environment, I'd give it a 60/100. Shawn has got 2 free movie tickets, as always, and so he asked me along to watch this movie called 'Atonement' which turned out to be real A-TONE (one tone) movie. Not only it was the second movie that I actually walked out on, it was confusing considering the flow was very stagnant and there weren't much conversation going on, and so that itself kept me hanging, wondering what the hell is the movie about. Was told it was supposedly a love movie, but all I see is, I don't know, I can't tell! I know a lot of people are gonna hate me after this, but I gotta say, there are similarities between this movie with Yasmin Ahmad's style of movie direction. All the long, quiet scenes that shows a guy maybe smoking a cigarette, then going on to nothing but really just waiting for him to finish his damn cigarette. There's a clue. By the way, the first movie that I actually walked out on was 'The Holiday'. It sucks, enough said.

No verdict.

2007-12-14T03:30:00.000+08:00

I don't know how true is this, but I've noticed that I'm more of a dreamer than anyone I know, or at least anyone I could think of right now. Not daydream though. It's just one of those moments where you sometimes reflect on certain thoughts about something that you probably wanted to think of or probably popped up in your head. Well, that 'sometimes' to me, happens to be most of the time. Even to the point she couldn't believe it. She would ask me whether I noticed how long of a pause was that.

Now I also used to have the thought of how much of a choice a person has to determine what he/she does or reacts to a certain situation, answers to a questions, behaves, everything. I thought it shouldn't be much of a big problem for me, but somehow, it sorta is. I'm stuck in the thought of 'a person can change another person by changing him/herself' with 'God's made you that way, and so use it wisely for His purposes'. Before I go on, I think this should be another issue of people being judgmental. Could it be that I'm afraid of other judging me, or could it be that I do not like being judge by other people, I have yet to find out.

A whole other thing. When I was roughly about the age of 15, let's just say I figured I found out I wasn't bad at handling sketches and I could draw. I remembered the very first thing I fell in love sketching were building facades and all that architecture jazz. Even remembered I once filled in my ambition blank as an 'architect'. Guess that didn't work out at all, reason was I hated figures, and I still do. After building facades, it moved on to human portraits. I concentrated, and copied every single line, only finding out that I wasn't too bad at 'copying' a certain portrait. Once I hit 18, I never touched a pencil. Till 2 days back, I figure, heck I don't know how far can I go within the ad field. Since I've had a passion, I am going to re-live it. I did, and it worked out pretty well. Not bad as a remedy whenever I am unoccupied.

Picked up the interest of drumming two years back, when I first accepted the Lord. I thought, okay my pace with coping went pretty well but now I'm really just stuck at a point of improving further. Honestly, it's deteriorating when you give a thought about what you can do best, finding out that there is none. That you do have a lot of interest and have already involved yourself in it, but most of your involvements in it are just as good as mediocre. Spare me an answer. You think those are the thoughts of a person that couldn't get himself anywhere because he hasn't aced in any one of those involvements yet? Or something deeper instead, like I probably have not figured the IT thing that I was suppose to do.
But you know, nearly everyone does things they prefer not to do, and they're still doing so. And of course I do not wish to be in that group of having to rant about everything, everyday. Unless God takes a hand in this, I'm gonna slap someone.

I'm on holidays and my mind's' still not declaring peace. Proves that 'free time' is not exactly what I need. I was wrong.

Will smith once again.

2007-12-13T19:38:00.000+08:00

I AM LEGEND.

I don't usually post reviews of the movies I've watched, but this is really something. Not only that, the last movie review that I have posted was also starring Will Smith, coincidentally, and the movie was 'The Pursuit of Happyness'. Not gonna spill out anything, but do yourselves a favor and get yourselves to the movies for this one. I didn't know what was it all about until I've watched it myself, so you'll probably find out the same way as well. Will Smith's one heck of an actor. I so dig his movies man.

The dog's acting and training helped make the movie even cooler, no joke.
Some joker farted in the cinema.
One more, Happy Birthday Thomas Matthew Delonge!

Dedicated to Tom.

2007-12-09T18:04:00.000+08:00

A funny a-hole that he used to be, Tom's created new things that some people aren't prepared to listen to. He's demonstrated a drastic change in his music and purpose for the listeners. Though all of us know he can't perform live performances like Pink Floyd, he sure as hell changed for the better, musically and in person. I mean, "Suck my d*ck" to "I love you, come and lay with me" is really something people should lay an eye on and wonder what makes him, him.

Random Images.

2007-12-07T00:47:00.000+08:00

A series of photographs I'd like to reflect back, when I found them in my old files that I thought I lost.

Eunice's bio pic, for the Seventeen Mag.

Year one in college. 2006.

Early 2006 probably.

The day I bust my knee. She thought it
would be funny, so this happened.

When I was still stalking her. :)

Probably 2006,
when my hair was everyone's issue.

Then I found this.

And I noticed, man what a neat piece
I was.

Compared to now. Everyone's aging so quickly.
Thannk God I didn't regret half the bits I had ever since 05.
Not to mentioned, I still have not put on much weight.
Who cares, I'm happy.

Frank Gehry

2007-12-05T16:13:00.000+08:00

I viewed this documentary couple of weeks ago. Pam thought me a couple of pointers on architecture, not really the kind of how to build or design a building (I know I'll never to that in a million years cuz it involves physics and maths and science) More likely on the side of who're the top players in the industry and their contribution. She showed me Frank Gehry, and dear God I gotta say that this man is one genius. The thing with him is, unlike most architects, he simply constructs a model by cutting and shaping em just as it is, according to how he likes it best or how he 'felt' looked better. Which means, he has his assistant cut out a part of the model and if he still thinks it doesn't look right, he bent it make zigzags out of it who knows what's in his head. What makes him a genius you ask? He simply knows whether the model is capable to stand on the way it's contructed or not right away. Apparently, he did a couple of building other architects thought wouldn't be able to stand or have been built at all. But up until this very day, it stands and just shouts out how much of an artist architect Frank Gehry is. He simply fought the nature of physics.
He said when he was still a student, friends used to make fun of him, saying how much of a lunatic he is, shaping and building models the way he does it. Seems foolish, but that's what got him to be what he is today.
I shall come back with more details and insights of Toyo Ito as well. Till then.

Take a look at his drawings, which only himself can understand.

The famous Guggenheim Museum Bilbao,
at Bilbao, Spain, 1997.

The 'EMP' (Experience Music Project) at Seattle.
Washington, 1999 to 2000.

Venice Beach House @ Venice, 1986.

Dancing Building in Prague I think, is it?

s'pore.

2007-12-01T15:50:00.000+08:00

As some of you know, I just came back from Singapore. I really made full use of my time there with Pam. Wilson and Sara stayed with is, but toured separately. We went to Vivo City, Esplanade, Sentosa, Chinatown, Jurong and Clarke Quay and a couple more places.

Along the way, we bought some licorice,
candies and chocolates in Candy Empire.
They should have one of those here!

Things we bought...

Macbeth's. We both got one ourselves.
Lol, Tom's fans. I've been waiting so long for this.
Pam bought an Eliot Velcro and I got the Wallister.

Edho tumpang to buy lomos.
Spent like 600 plus omg. The horizon one
is very unique actually.

Pam got herself one as well :)

And some bags for my mum.

Jurong Bird Park

The owl that eye-balled me.

This Kampong Owl preys on foxes and deers.
Cool! This baby is bigger than an adult cat!
Almost up to a dog size.

Lorries.

The famous Bald Eagle.

Feeding the Lorry birds

Sentosa.

Images of Singapore

The only non-waxed person which scared the shit out of us when she greeted us.

Sky Tower.

In the Sky Tower, I made so much noise cuz I was afraid of heights.
Sucked it all in, the whole time. Sorry I was being such a girl, Pam :)

Luge & Skyride

The Luge was one of the most exciting rides I've ever taken, possibly the best! We were so excited. Couldn't take any photos though cuz we were riding it together. The one above is the skyride, after
riding the luge. Again, making a lot of noise cuz if heights.

$5 for this.

Esplanade.

The headquarters of Basheer

Page One! I can spend a whole week in there!

Orchard Road. Didn't get to try the famous $1 ice-cream.

Chijmes.
Where she performed in a choir group before. So funny how bars and pubs are in the same place as a church.

The place we stayed at in Chinatown.
Damn cheap, damn clean, damn convenient because the MRT is just
steps away from the entrance.

Fullerton Hotel. According to Pam, it's a celebrity and presidential class hotel.

Chinatown.

Clarke Quay

Turkish Ice-cream

Yep, Hooters in ClarkeQuay.
Pam asked me to peep and check out the Hooter girls wooh!
Hahah!

This place is awesome! Saatchi & Saatchi is here as well,
among the pubs and bars. How cool.

Merlion.

Vivo City

Toyo Ito's creation.
Thanks to Pam, I'm exposed to people like him and Frank Gehry.

Vivo's rooftop. The whole fluid and curvy concept is pretty cool. Malaysia's mall architecture will never run like this. Maybe another 10 years?

It's funny that I didn't expect the trip to be as fun, especially taking the MRT, and escalators. Taking trains there is actually damn fun! It's so different from here. It's bloody fast-paced, yet the Singaporeans and so bloody ethical. How I wish Malaysia's like that as well, so organized, so politically fair and so systematic.
Everything make so much sense there. Malaysia should learn a thing or two about the country's system like the tolls and public transports.
The Malaysians in the other hand, should really have the ethics that Singaporeans have. Zebra crossings there are actually there for a reason. In the trains, people would actually give their sit for others. Here, I think they'd probably pretend to sleep or something.
Don't hate me for spilling the little ugly truths, admit and change instead. Another thing is, smokers actually smoke by the bin and stand at a place while smoking. Strangers acknowledge your help and are very polite. We need a drastic change to catch up with them, seriously.

Ads are everywhere, literally! And their ads are an obvious step higher than our country's. Singaporean kids are very artsy. Thought to adapt to fast-paced, and creative side of them. The girls wear athlete shorts, slippers and hoodies in mall, and still look cool. Here, everyone will stare at you if you dress that way. I observed and found out another thing about Singaporeans which, turns out to be true. But I'll not say it here.

We walked and walked and walked. My legs hurt like crazy, I'm not just saying it, it really kills but it's all worth it.

War bombs & riots.

2007-11-25T23:24:00.000+08:00

As it has always been, my Sunday mornings are always prioritized for Sunday service celebration. Today though, has been a little hassle for the people who wanted to seek the Lord, as the Malaysian Indians were having a peaceful demonstration against the British government. They wanted to be heard, to be fairly treated and wanted their rights back. Having said that, similar to last few week's protest, the government police has sprayed chemical water and tear gases to the open crowd. I've personally witnessed the whole incident because my church was actually in Menara T.A. (opposite KLCC). Initially the crowd was very united, they were just standing around without creating problems of anyhow. Only when the police had shot tear gases, it aggravated the crowd and they started picking up the tear bombs and throwing it back to the police. It really looks funny and cool, to how once the tear gas lands at the crowd and rolls, they worked together to pour water on it to stop gas from coming out. That's something new I've learned today. Didn't know water can run out tear gas, like it's fire. It really angers me after watching the replay of it on Al-Jazeera, of how the police have acted brutally towards the crowd. If they buggers don't aggravate the crowd, it would be a total peaceful demonstration. And people won't be injured! Totally reminds me of the American 2000 Democratic National Convention. Lets all hope and pray that our country remains peaceful, in spite how much of a dirty government we could've been living in.

So long Cyberjaya.

2007-11-20T01:49:00.000+08:00

I'm leaving Cyberjaya for good this week. I'm gonna be moving out soon to Perth, and I'm not gonna have the chance to moan and groan about how boring Cyber is. Regardless, it's still a big part of my life. I've spent years here with my friends, driving through every corners of the roads and sometimes even spend time doing the most unnecessary things ever that I won't bother typing at all. I remembered how I moved in with Alba and them in Puchong, then moving to Cyber with Pam. Man I really miss those moments. The tiring walk from the my far parked car, to the never-ending visitor passes. I'm certain that I'm gonna remember all the times I've spent here for a very, very long time. School sucks, but my experience with friends here, priceless.

Having said that, I'm also leaving her as well, which I don't know how am I ever going to. For like, a year. I really hope and pray she'll get through the whole two semesters well. Not forgetting, that I also hope we'll be constantly in touch. Man, this is going to be hard. As for the guys, there are like nine of us right? You'll so totally be missing out my complaints and all.

I'd say that I'm not like most others, as I don't prefer to adapt to a whole new environment. I don't like the whole parting thing. As much of a loner I am, I have to admit that I really can't go anywhere be myself without the close people around me. It's not going to be that bad, but I'll always need my close companions by my side, and I mean it. My family, her, and my best friends. I am not going to cry! I hope. Ah heck who cares, what's wrong feeling a lil' sad. So long Cyberjaya. So long people. I love all of you.

Aeroline.

2007-11-17T14:34:00.000+08:00

On the 26th, Pam and I will be going to Singapore for a couple of days. Just to take a break from the never-ending semester that will finally end next week. Will probably lay back all the way and not think about work for these couple of months, and I mean it. I've been so bumped out ever since this semester starts. I wouldn't say that I've learned much about anything at all, but more of my interests, research on some new bizarre things. Anyway, about the trip, I'm looking forward that I'll be able to take the Aeroline bus all the way there and back to KL.

From my observation, this bus advertises itself as the 'plane' bus. Not sure whether it's talking about the interior, service or speed. Either one is good enough, but I think all the three things I've said is included. So, yes I'm gonna expect a lot from the bus experience itself. It's so exciting that the lower floor of the bus is a lounge that people can just hang around. This is my only near-experience of a rockstar tour bus, haha. Let's just stop there before I get too high. Below is the picture of the Aeroline Bus and it's interior.

Notice there are only 3 seating space.
Shows you how spacious the seat is.

Lounge at the lower floor.

Now this is more of a real deal.

Too bad I won't get the whole bunker experience.

Love like Rockets.

2007-11-17T02:47:00.000+08:00

I went out with Pam to buy her flight ticket back to Jakarta, and along the way we went hunting for I-Empire as well. Once we've reached Tower Records, we immediately felt the familiar tunes. I-Empire was playing in Tower Records! Weirdly, I kinda felt flattered or sorta honored that they were playing Angels and Airwaves, as if I was part of the band. Guess this is what you get if you're so damn crazy about them/ their music. I got so highly excited, as well as Pam and we spread out running like little kids searching for the CD. We were practically all over the place at first.

Matt Wachter as bass.

Then I found the album, and held it in my hands. Oh the joy of showing it to Pam! The joy was indescribable man. I haven't felt that feeling since I last bought BoxCar Racer. I'm not an album collector freak and I wouldn't usually pay 50 bucks for a music album but this one is exceptional. I'd buy for 200 bucks if I have to. And so, me and Pam bought 1 each for ourselves! That's how much I think the songs are worth. It is just so worth it. All their hard work of coming up with the cool concept for the songs and the weird distortions, you can't really say how much to label their album for.

All Pam's collection of their originals.
Mine's only the BCR and I-Empire.
Notice they're two copies of both albums.

Not only that, we've sorta been exposed to their interviews, and sorta past and current lives. It's funny how other people couldn't see the art of their music and how it is bloody awesome but its forgivable cuz' they probably didn't follow up since Blink or never did. Btw, I strongly support Matt being in the band. He definitely fits in more than Ryan, seeing that Matt is much more nice and easy-going as he is. Plus, he had so made the right decision for leaving a band that plays emocrap for a band that is worth playing for (though he gets bullied here and there, but it's all good.) I'm just so happy for them. Of course the top that, the best feeling is the experience of it with Pam throughout all these days. The two people who're overly enthusiastic with Tom's current project, hehe. :)

Triumphs and Buells.

2007-11-15T04:34:00.000+08:00

I have recently found out about David Kennedy's bike model, which is the Triumph, and if I'm not mistaken, the Speed Triple. Hopefully he's got that one, cuz I'm all crazy about it. Okay, not up to the extend of being crazy about it. If I were ever a big bike enthusiast, I'd go for the Triumph Speed Triple's bike kinda look, instead of your usual superbike. Now lets break it down with the visuals so I'm much clearer.

Now, this would be the common big bikes that boys love to have,
but there's something yet badder than this look of the bike.

Buells.

Another Buell.

Vaxon Black Magic.
Similar to the Triumph but has a more ascending tank,
and single headlight.

The ever cool Triumph.

Chicks dig Triumphs as well, lol. While the guys dig the chick.

Notice that the Triumph is sorta superbike,
but in a different style of approach.
It's fierce as well, but has a more rather bad ass feel to it.

Chick riding Ducati Monster

So yeah, I'd choose Triumphs way over the common superbikes. I've seen a two caucasian riding one heading from Bangsar, and I gotta tell you these babies are huge and loud! And I'd love to see Tom Delonge getting one himself.

Next up? Hot Rods!

Sense of Belonging.

2007-11-08T02:24:00.000+08:00

I really wanna do something I really like in the future. Question is, is it really a job I can earn money doing or merely a hobby? I'm devastated by the reality.
On the bright side of it, although this is the worst semester ever in my college, I still can see myself maturing in thoughts of life, existence and all that. I guess I'm beginning to digest it properly without confusing myself as I always used to. I did learned a whole lot last semester, but it was mostly on my career sneak-peak. But what ever beats self-actualization right?

As I listen to I-Empire, I'm feeling a thousand ways and answers just rush through my head. Having that sense of peace in songs like that, I don't know how do they do it. It's really hard to explain. Listening to it, brings out the right feeling that I have to feel at that moment itself, and I just know that it's right. You can never listen to it without reflecting on yourself, your past, loved ones and God himself.

Every once in a while, I think I'll need to listen to them just to stop the world's time and just think and reflect on who I really am. Well, not actually that, I sort of already understood a part of existence, just whether there's more to it, for me personally. Build me up everyday, God. I feel so tired of chasing after things that the world craves. I'm so tired of putting you aside and looking at things that I thought could satisfy me when I knew it couldn't.

P.s. : Happy Birthday Sophia! I saw your recent picture and you look like Kimora Lee Simmons! YOU GREW FAT. Hahahahahahahaha!

Suited up. Almost.

2007-11-06T01:01:00.000+08:00

Just to acknowledge Iylia and Burn for the very professional teamwork there. I'm going off next year, so you guys sort it out for group projects. Don't think you both ever will though, hah! So yeah, propaganda's a fun theme to do. We all learned a lil' bit didn't we?

I-Empire is released!!

2007-11-05T02:37:00.000+08:00

Dear anak-anak Angels & Airwaves, I-Empire is out! And kepada anak-anak non-Angels & Airwaves, please don't listen to it, as anak-anak Angels and Airwaves does not want it to be your average joe mainstream music. Go start from scratch. Sekian, terima kasih.

twentyone more to a hundred

2007-11-05T02:13:00.000+08:00

This is one of my meaningless say. I'm actually looking to get a Sabian B8 cymbals including splash. And more stands, for a crash-ride. Btw, thats how I play currently. The Paiste pst-3 series has been kinda bothering me, especially the ride. Please bless me financially for worship, God?

Andre, Angel & Shawn

And we went to Angel's advanced 21st birthday party .Thanks for the invite Shawn. Well, I don't really know her too well to write much about her. Though I can write about the event. It was filled with people who love to talk, hah! The thing that amazes me the most is that majority of the people were dancers. Let it be uncle and aunties to teenagers. Every song that comes, they would be so excited to find a partner to dance with. I must say, I stared alot. The uncles were so damn gaya man no kidding. Cool and all with their moves, if you know what I mean. And Bono was invited as well! Good day!